October 2010
146 posts
Umm...
Relevant.
September 2010
167 posts
My daddy just bought me a purity ring (: ♥
I'm great!
I'm alive in this wonderful world and saved by Christ!
How can I complain? :D
And I'm glad you enjoyed yourself last night. :]
Oh, that’s fantastic! And you’re right, all in all, life with God is always just ducky (:
I need to start looking up. I don’t want to waste my days here. And God has blessed me.
The same power that conquered the grave lives in me.
Yeah yeah!
I'm sure you're going to have a blast! :]
I went, and it wasn’t what I expected but it was nice.
How are you doing, Chris, my bud? (:
All I want to do is sleep.
Not because I’m tired. I guess I am, but that’s not why.
I just don’t feel like being awake anymore.
I can feel it all trembling. The whole world is going to come crashing down any day now. I can just tell.
I’m just want to sleep, and have nice, happy dreams.
I'm just done.
Arrgghghghghgghhh.
I want to explode. And I want to give in. But wanting to give in makes me want to hurt myself. So I guess I’m basically screwed.
Hey, you? You piss me off. Just so you know.
Hey! I hope you're doing well. :]
Have you decided whether or not you're going to that church group thing? :]
Hi Chris!! I’m doing pretty good, hbu?
I’ve decided to go. As long as my dad is still planning on bringing me, I’m going. If it’s bad, I just wont go next week.
JUST SO YOU KNOW, this message made my day (: Thank you for caring.
Unfollowing you on here as well. If you want me to know something you can tell me.
I'll be your friend later. I'm trying this new thing where I'm not depressed.
I hope your life has changed for the better.
I'm going to make my life better and that means I need to learn to live without knowing you for a while.
Goodbye.
ouch.
so, I'm kind of looking for a new church experience...one where there wont be any crap social distractions that ruin my morning, and I heard you've been some places...perhaps an adventure is in order?
Ooh! Alright!! Adventures are always superb (:
There’s this place called The River in manchester and it’s the church along with Food For Children. The spiritual presence is beautiful (it took me four tries to spell presence in that sentence)
I’m also wanting to try out Bedford Community Church. Kenzie Nine and Ryan Mossman go there. I went to youth group there with them and it was great. I want to try out the service sometime.
I like Suite Life On Deck
No shame.
Today was formal day at school (for spirit week)
I got to wear this really pretty dress and I just love dressing up (:
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When you see a girl with the tips of her hair dyed hot pink, do you automatically think "whore" or "druggie"?
Cuz apparently my parents do.
I want to temporarily dye my tips a fun color for fun. Like hot pink. And apparently, this will make me look absolutely horrible and give me a disgusting reputation. My parents yelled at me for suggesting it.
The girl who seemed unbreakable broke. The girl who always laughed cried. The girl who never stop trying finally gave up. She dropped a fake smile as a tear ran down her cheek and she whispered to herself "I can't do this anymore".
Tomorrow I'm having a nerd-athon.
Two of my guy friends invited me over so we can have a marathon of Lord Of The Rings extended editions. They own all three.
I love them so much.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I don’t want to waste my childhood being sad. When I’m looking back at that as an old woman, I know I’ll be disappointed in myself. It is such a waste. So I will be happy tomorrow.
LOTR is amazing.
Your guy friends dislike me though, I can tell. HATERS GONNA HATE.
Have fun!
The only guy friend of mine that dislikes you is Ben.
PLEASE DON’T LINK ME AS BEN’S FRIEND.
Golly, that was mean. But you know how obnoxious and creepy and rude he is. And I’m pretty sure I’m the only person in the school that isn’t mean to him.
Oh yeah, and I’ve never seen LOTR, which is why they’re making me watch it.
Tomorrow I'm having a nerd-athon.
Two of my guy friends invited me over so we can have a marathon of Lord Of The Rings extended editions. They own all three.
I love them so much.
Tomorrow will be a better day. I don’t want to waste my childhood being sad. When I’m looking back at that as an old woman, I know I’ll be disappointed in myself. It is such a waste. So I will be happy tomorrow.
:) how are you todayy!?
hello beautiful!
I’m pretty good today. So far today has been better than yesterday. How are you?? (:
It's my prayer that it would last to and beyond next week. That when you look in the mirror, you would recognize yourself as one of God's wonderful creations. :]
Nice to meetcha, Jessi! Let's be buds, aight?
You’re sweet, thank you. I’ll definitely try to think of myself like that.
YES!! I’d love to be buds :D
hi.
i love yew.
kbye.
hey.
this post just made my day.
I LOVE YOU TOO.
byeeee :D
Glad I could lift your spirits! :] It's all about encouragement, especially to mi hermanos y hermanas en Christo!
It's okay to be scared, you know. That's part of our faith. Stepping out of your little box and into the lives of others. I say do eeeeeeeet!
I'm Chris by the way. :]
You did lift my spirits (: And it’s marvelous to meet you, mi hermano en Christo!!
You’re right. We’d get nowhere if we never stepped out of our comfort zone. I’m extremely self-conscious and it’ll be a challenge for me. But worth it.
Let’s hope this feeling stays until next week (:
HEY CHRIS!! I’m Jessi! Super great to meet you! I read your testimony and it’s very inspiring! (:
Law and Order....consider my mind blown.
I'd rather deal with other peoples' problems than confront or talk about my own.
I suck at photography.
Cool.
I want to go to this group at my church on Wednesday nights
where you can use singing, musical and acting talents. And it’s a very no-pressure thing. It sounds like it’s right up my alley, and I know I would love it.
I’m probably not going to go. I would show up and not be as good as everyone else. I would look like a fool and feel ridiculous. I’d bring the whole thing down.
I suck. It’s not even worth it.
Reblog and bold what applies to you; →
My personality:
- I’m loud.
- I’m obnoxious.
- I’m sarcastic.
- I’m cocky.
- I cry easily.
- I have a bad temper.
- For the most part I don’t like people.
- I’m easy to get along with.
- I have more enemies than friends.
- I’ve smoked.
- I’ve smoked weed.
- I drink coffee.
- I clean my room daily.
My appearance:
- I wear makeup.
- I wear a piece of jewellery at all times.
- I wear contacts.
- I wear glasses.
- I have braces.
- I change my hair colour often
- I straighten my hair often
- I have a piercing
- I have small feet
Relationships:
- I’m in a relationship now.
- I’m single.
- I’m crushin’.
- I’ve missed an ex before.
- An ex has physically abused me at least once.
- I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
- I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
- I’ve been [teenage version of] in love more than two times.
- I believe in love at first sight.
- I believe lust is more important than love.
Friendships:
- I have a best friend.
- I have at least ten friends.
- I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
- I’ve beaten up a friend.
- I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
- I can trust at least five people with my life.
Experiences:
- I’ve been on a plane.
- I’ve been on a train.
- Someone close to me has died
- I’ve taken a taxi.
- I’ve taken a city bus
- I’ve taken a school bus.
- I’ve gone bungee jumping.
- I’ve made a speech
- I’ve been in some sort of club.
- I’ve won an award.
- I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
- I’ve been in a physical fight.
Music:
- I listen to R&B.
- I listen to country.
- I listen to pop.
- I listen to techno.
- I listen to rock.
- I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until i hate it.
- I hate the radio
- I download music.
- I buy CD’s.
Television:
- I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
- I watch soap operas daily.
- I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
- I’ve seen and liked the O.C.
- I’ve seen and liked One Tree Hill.
- I’ve seen and like Americas Next Top Model.
- I’ve seen and like Popular.
- I’ve seen and like 24.
- I’ve seen and liked CSI.
- I’ve seen and like Everwood.
Family Life:
- I get along with both of my parents.
- My biological parents are still together.
- I have at least one brother.
- I have at least one sister.
- I have at least one step brother/sister
- I have at least one half brother/sister.
- I’ve been kicked out of the house.
- I’ve ran away from my home.
Hair:
- I’ve been brown.
- I’ve had streaks.
- I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
- I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
- I’ve been blonde.
- I’ve had black.
- I’ve been red.
- I’ve been light brown.
- I’ve been medium brown.
- I’ve been blue/green.
- I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
- I use conditioner.
- I’ve used silk therapy.
- I’ve used hot oil treatments.
- I’ve curled my hair.
- I’ve straightened my hair.
- I’ve ironed my hair.
- I’ve braided my hair.
School:
- I’ve yelled at a teacher.
- I’ve been suspended.
- I’ve had an in-school suspension.
- I’ve been sent to the principals office.
- I’ve walked out of class.
- I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
- I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
- I’ve failed Art.
- I’ve failed P.E.
- I’ve failed math.
- I’ve failed science.
- I’ve failed another class.
- A teacher has called my parents.
Sorry for the long post, followers. I felt like it.
GROUP OF NEW FOLLOWERS!
Thanks, guys! (: You all are awesome. ♥
This is your formal greeting from me.
And, just for fun…
RANDOM OUTBURST OF LOVE:
To all of my followers, new an old, this is how awesome you are:
Love you ♥
Well neither can I, I'm trying this new thing were I try and get enough sleep. Haha. Should we just talk here? Whats going on with your parents D:.
Okay, You're going to the sleepover at Annies right? Would you like to come over sometime this weekend and just talk? Or we could talk on the phone or whatever.
I'll think about it :) it seemed like you really wanted me to.
How so? D:
BTW, talk about an Anon :) Just so you know, the reason I'm probably going to end up going to a psychiatrist is because I am probably clinically depressed as well. Just saying.
Sleep. What an interesting concept. (Nice Mean Girls quote, btw.)
My parents and I keep fighting.
I am going to Annies on saturday. Is the bonfire at your place still gonna happen? And idk, I honestly already have a couple places to be this weekend. FFC, Alli, possibly Emily, Annie/Heather, church, you know, the norm.
You know how I feel about Bethany. If you wanna come, seriously you can. But you know how that is for me.
Grades are annoying. I kinda just don’t care anymore.
I liked that Anon. But I have a lot to figure out about my life. I wouldn’t be able to see a psychiatrist if the depression thing is true. I don’t think I wanna even bring it up to my parents. There’s still some more stuff I have to discuss with Jeff first.
The optimist died inside of me.
Honestly, the time I need the most support in my life
and my parents decide to fight with me. Thanks, dad, continue to treat me like I’m worth nothing.
When you say things like that, I take it to heart.
I really really REALLY envy your faith in God. Like it makes me cry because I wish I believed as strongly as you and some other people that I know. but I grew up in a household where we didn't go to church, but I really liked religion so I went with my Great Aunt. but my parents always talk about how heaven/etc. must not exist if bad things happen to good people and bad people get off easy. and sometimes I find myself believing that he must not exist.../sigh. just sayin'. I wish I could be more like you :(
…..woah.
Thank you. I love you. You are so sweet. But I can’t accept this whole thing gracefully.
I struggle with my life a lot. My brother and I have been talking quite a bit lately and it’s a possibility that I have legitimate depression. But I do still love God.
My family didn’t go to church until my brother made us all. After he and I fell in love with it, my parents caught on the band wagon. My father was saved kinda recently and my mother still hasn’t been I don’t believe.
God does exist. I promise you. There is noooo way that He couldn’t. He is real, and trust me, He loves you SO much.
You know he has been weird lately. I don't know he's still one of m best friends.
Awesome what works for you?
Well I don't know you wanted me to come last time do you still want me to?
BTW, how are grades going?
Maybe I should stop raping your ask and text you lol
I actually can’t text right now for homework (and parent) related issues.
I have no idea when I’m free. Knowing my life, never. But we’ll find some time.
It’s completely up to you if you wanna come!
Grades suck.
Haha I'm glad we got over things rather quickly. David was "scolding" me for being friends with my ex-girlfriend so quickly. He doesn't think it's right. It's whatever though I'm glad were still friends.
I would love to have a God talk. I haven't done anything faith related in a long time so it would be fun, or would be good just to talk or something.
Do you still want me to go to your church at some point? :D
David is stupid.
God talk it is, we’ll set up a time.
And if you want to, then you’re more than welcome!
Crap. I meant you're. Not your.
Ugh.
This is why we’re still friends (:
You'll make it through Jessi your very strong :).
I hope you have a nice day at school.
Thank you very much (:
My day was alright. Jeremy and I had one of our God talks during MT. And if you’re still looking for one, I’m always here. I would be honored.
What an emotional day.
Time to read some Harry Potter and distract myself from it all…
jessi, i am SO proud of you. like so proud that i wish i could give you a hug riiight now. i had no idea!! keep up the good work, im sure it must be tough trying to control that kind of thing, but i have faith in you <3
thanks (: ♥ *hugs you back*
nobody knew. like i said, no one noticed. but my views changed a little and hopefully this spell of me being…healthy will last for a while. or, you know, forever.
thank you (: it means a lot!
so, first of all, you are not a nuisance. aaand if you ever need any of that stuff, call me! 'cuz I'd be happy to.
second, you are totally worth it. don't ever even question that, because if you weren't worth God's time to create you, you wouldn't be here. you have a purpose, dearie.
thirdly, I hope you're alright. sorry for dropping a bomb on you last night with my message :( I have a lot of work on my heart to do. but im a shoulder to cry on, if jefe is ever not around ;)
chin up :) you are loved by so many people and you are so beautiful
you have no idea how happy this message just made me. i love you so much ♥
thank you for offering, i may call you one day for a ride or something.
thas actually really inspiring. God did put me here for a reason. i was meaning more that i’m not worth it for people to care about me so much.
don’t worry about the bomb(: if it cant happen, it cant happen. God made this plan for a reason. But golly, I’d like if something miraculous happened to change it.
you’re so great. i love you. you are beyond incredibly beautiful, my dear (:
I can't believe I just told my brother all of that...
I told him everything.
Everything I’ve done to myself, everything that’s happened to me, everything unhealthy I’ve thought about doing or that I actually did.
I would say specifics but I know 5 people on here IRL.
I’ve cried so much today that my head hurts.
I only lied about one thing. And that’s that I’m not still into something. I told him I was done with it. I’m not. But it was still great to tell him everything.
I am not that worth it.
I'm a nuisance to my family.
They always have fights about who has to bring me here or there, wake me up, do this with me, talk about that with me. They don’t want to do anything with, for, or about me. They fight about who has to.
This happens constantly.
I know it would be easier for them all if I just wasn’t here.
I feel so stupid.
Like, seriously. I am completely stupid.
I just had a horrible, horrible night last night. So yes, I lost it today in school.
It was comforting to see how much people really care though (: My friends are the best. ♥
Number 12, Grimmauld Place: Let me just say this before I go. →
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I’ve seen some people criticizing “believers” on here because they “can’t prove God exists”.
But that’s ridiculous. Belief in a higher power is accepted by faith. ALSO, BELIEF THAT NO HIGHER POWER EXISTS IS ACCEPTED BY FAITH. Everyone has faith. Some people just place it in different things.
To say that God doesn’t exist because we can’t prove he exists make you look ignorant.
I don’t know for sure everything there is to know, but I do believe in a God that loves us. And if that’s going to be a problem, then you know what to do.
i love you nathan. this is so true.
Oh shit. I hurt you.
I didn’t want to. I love you.
You know what? It’s okay.
I still love you to. We can still be friends. You weren’t like my other girlfriends and I’m glad for that but I think we can still be great friends.
I really don’t want to lose you in my life because you’ve helped me through so much.
What do you think? Friends?
I would love that. immensely. Please still be my friend. I wanna be here for you. And I really don’t want you out of my life.
